A Long Forgotten Memory

Tonight, as we were heading back home after dinner, I was reminded of a simpler time. A time in my life that I honestly believed that I could do, be, have and achieve anything I wanted. Anything at all, no dream or idea was too big or too far fetched. Just like I was told, all I had to do is work hard and want it bad enough and eventually it would be mine. This dreamy, fuzzy edged page from my past was brought full circle by several realizations.
The first of those being how a song playing on the radio, which meant nothing in your life before that point, can suddenly cause an incredible epiphany. We were in the car with the radio on, mostly to break the awkward silence. A couple of seconds go by and a few familiar bars waft through the speakers. Immediately I am transformed back into that little girl dancing and singing in the living room, twirling as fast as I could, so that my long flowing skirt would fly wildly all around me.
As I sat, content and comforted by my memory, the lyrics made their way into my consciousness. Words I had sung countless times, mindlessly, rooted themselves in my present. Effortlessly the honey coated words danced on my mental pallate so that I may savor each one before swallowing them down. Digesting every morsel of knowledge contained within.
It had been years since I had let myself visit the wide eyed little girl with the world at her feet. For such a long time she had been too far out of reach, untouchable in my past, as if she was a figment of my imagination rather than someone I used to be. That is when it occurred to me. The ever so heart broken, love weary, teary eyed woman that occupied my seat not only knew that little girl full of innocent exuberance - they were one and the same. The only difference, besides years of experiences and more grey hair than I care to admit, was that now I knew the meaning behind the lyrics that I mouthed.


until next time.....
be kind,
me